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I really liked staying in Indonesia despite the unescapable traffic jams that get on my nerves every now and then or the fact that it is rly inconvenient to go out. I get to spend time with my parents and in a way,do not have to stress/worry about *stuffs*.It's... peaceful. Ind may not be th safest place around but I like the carefree life I had for th past few weeks. On th day I had to leave for Sgp, for the first time, I didnt felt like going.I have no obligations to go back to Sgp anyway,I've finished what I needed to do. But I'm already here, and the feeling isn't that great.At the back of my mind, I feel stressed and I dont know why...feels like there's a need to DO sth. strange.

I'm looking forward to March,it's THE month.Make it or break it? No matter what the outcome will be,I have decided to receive it with a confident heart. I'm excited about what's gonna happen!!!!^^ Memories I will keep, but future is what's next.

Been lazy and tired to update recently.
Surprisingly,I haven't been as idle as I thought I would be. Past few days I've been getting the hang of driving.Learning how to park the car was a stumbling block tht i managed to jump over..Not to say the least I managed to steer those 4 wheels safely back home on the crazy streets of Indo and even th highway so I'm actually pretty pleased with myself HAHA.#achievement unlocked. 

Also, I went out with my cousins(probably th first time in indo and w/o my parents) to Dunia Fantasi which is a theme park with pretty much nobody there.Got home with a few bruises after riding the bumper car and bumping random ppl's car. I have no idea why I played such a brainless game.guess it was a childhood thing.Oh they also had this tilt house where th structure of th house was built slanted,kind of like Pisa and it was rly hard walking through th house. I ended up being rly dizzy.AND this is th climax and highlight of th trip: VIKING SHIP. i will never ever sit on it ever again it's freaking scary i had my eyes closed all th time and my friend beside me even had time t take picture while th ship was swinging 90 degree from th ground.I swear I would have vomited if I had eaten sth before th ride :/ Please think twice before going on viking and never underestimate your opponent even if they look like nothing cos I did..We played till dark and were all wet after going on a water raft for 3 times.I didnt bring any extra jeans so I was soaking wetttt until i reached my cousin's place.We ate dinner outside and drank bubble tea!!!Havent drank it in such a long time,feels gooooood :D
And then it was KARAOKEEEE TIMEEE. I was the only one being crazyyyy jumping on th couch.I didnt realise th time but when I looked at my phone I realised it was 1 i thought i didnt set my time properly LOL but still we kept on going and finally finished our session at  2...it's super rare in indo to go out this late cos it's quite dangerous.Even my cousins never go out till this late also. But it was fun!!!Hope there are more to come.



And,I always knew dancing isn't easy but after having kinect at home, I experienced it myself AND IT'S REALLY TIRING. My respect for singers who can sing live and dance at the same time just went up by a thousand times.And professional dancers too of course. RESPECT.

Growing up.
When I was young, I used to wish there was a fast forward button that I could press so that I would quickly grow up.Now that I'm actually on my way to dipping my toes in the adult world,it's pretty intimidating.I mean, RESPONSIBILITY.It's burdensome.If anywhere along the way I make a mistake,the fault's mine.No one can be my scapegoat.It's probably the most crucial period for me right now,having to decide on many many things that would hence dictate my life...

I guess these thoughts were triggered when I met most of my cousins today,most of whom have already matured into promising young adults.It's an unfamiliar feeling because it seem not long ago when we were still playing as little kids and goofing around.Now it's the formality talks with one another since we don't see each other much.I miss playing just for the sake of playing.

Oh and I hate it when my introverted side gets mistaken for being proud.I mean, I'm not exactly one who would go up to someone I'm not close to and strike up a conversation. Yes,to put it in another way,I'm not very friendly.I'm pretty scared of awkwardness.So instead of striking up a conversation in the beginning and thinking of what I should say next,I rather keep quiet.But of course, it would be mistaken as being haughty by some people.Well, what is life without judgmental people right?

Anw, Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
Am alrdy missing all my friends! 

My bro and I played this dancing game on kinect and rock out to Willow's Smith "Whip my hair" on new year's eve.
Just a snippet of it :




Consequences shall be beared later when our muscles ache tmr.

I've finally returned to the place where Kelly Jie first breathe her first breath.
Indonesia!!How i missed you!(kind of)
But really,it feels good to be back.Especially when the whole Jie family is here,which is rare.
Makes me more thankful and appreciative for the time we get to spend as a family.With both my bro and I starting our uni this year,it'll probably be hard to get together in the near future.

There has always been this thing I'd do when I am back and I'm thinking it'll be no different this time round.It's not a routine or anything,it's just that worrying excessively comes naturally when I'm in a place far away from my friends.Hmmm.

Some alone time would do me good.Maybe.

Wished I was more of an interesting person.